Hi, My name si Dulce Guinand and I'm in a very difficult social and economical situation due to my mental health condition and family system. My story is quite long and hard for me to tell so I don't know where to start. I'm an illustrator and actually can do many type of things. To survive, I've managed to successfully accomplish many kind of jobs. From pet grooming to comunity management and graphic design. Video editor, youtuber, musician... Sometimes waitress, sometimes caretaker or even costumer service agent. I always wanted to live from my art, have a peaceful life with a loving partner and contribute to society somehow. But since I'm autistic (and some other background) I just can't hold on current life. Can't focus on one task for too long without burn out. Even writing this has taken hours to me now. The main issue is that I'm a inmigrant, and I need money either to stay o to get out of this country. Money that apparently I can't get now. I sell all my stuff and came to Chile taking several buses (from Venezuela) in 2017 looking for better life and future with my ex boyfriend. But our relationship became a actual nightmare in a couple of months after arriving. This, I think, was because cptsd caused by our liminal last experiences living in Venezuela. We lacked food and social stability there during 2016. We were both in a delicate mental state when we came to this country, and struggled a lot to get enough money to survive in Santiago for years and pay some shelter. Somehow everything just failed in every attempt for getting a life and my brain just colapsed. I suffered from several mental disorders including psychosis and of course depression and suicidal behavior cause I couldn't even pay for therapy. So I lost everything I really appreciated in my life. He left me and I agreed with that because I was aware that it wasn't easy to live with me. And now I'm trapped here without a fixed job nor money, even though I do several things to get some of it. I live now in the south of Chile with my mom's family, (the also came in 2018) wich is also, believe it or not, incredibly detrimental for my health. I'm sorry if this sounds bad to you, but I can assure you, this is a toxic family system. Not to be ungrateful, cause I also feel guilty somehow. And this is the main reason I'm screaming for help. I don't know what else to do. I scaped from my family to live with my ex when I was 24 years old. Everything got better till the political situation in Venezuela went hardcore in 2016... And now being here again with them trapped, getting diminished and blamed everyday is like death to my mind and soul. They don't want me to move and get a life even though I'm 33 years old now. I'm like the family scapegoat. My only friend lives in Spain and we are planning to move together some day since he's in a similar (but worse) family situation. We both autistic and "gifted" but lack social skills. He has written 12 science fiction books now but don't know how to sell them and he's looking for a job but (just like me) every time he gets hired also gets exploited and underpaid. Please. I'm really begging for a second opportunity to get a healthy life. I'm unimaginably tired. I just need therapy, social stability, a decent job and some peace, either alone in an apartment or with my friend. You can donate me money, contact me, offer me some job. I will share some of my art work. Thank you a lot if you read this entirely I put a lot of effort trying to describe my situation. My IG is @bitter_nope