Hello, my name is Marco Antonio Matias Flores, I am 23 years old, I am from Peru, a South American country, I come from a family of 7 siblings, 2 women and 4 men, my father abandoned us before I was born, I left my mother pregnant with my last brother, my mother dedicated herself to working in a popular restaurant providing social assistance to low-income people until now, she does so, my older brother started working From the age of 12 to raise my family, he was like a father to us. I left school at 16 to start working and help at home. With time and lack of support I fell into drugs and alcohol at the age of 18 until I was 19 I felt that those friends were the only people who understood my pain, thank God I stayed away from them, and I was able to get out of that bad path There were times where I was out of work. That depresses me but I don't give up, look for a job wherever and in whatever. I was always strong, but there were times where I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. 2020 the pandemic arrives, I meet a girl online Misthy, she is Filipino, she was like an angel fallen from heaven He understood my pain but in a different way and I understood his pain, it was like talking to myself in a mirror I asked her to be my girlfriend 15 days after we met, she accepted and for 3 years we talked and made video calls She speaks English and I speak Spanish, even with the language difference we understood each other. The love we had was so much that we made promises and I promised to go get her and bring her to my country, she comes from a country like mine, very humble and low-income. We are still together but I can't raise the money to go see her or bring her here, that frustrates me and demotivates me. I fell into depression because it was like giving her hope and playing with her, something I never wanted to do. I love her so much that there isn't a single day that I don't stop thinking about her. We still continue with the promise of meeting and getting married and having a family. 2024 I lost my job Depression has returned, but this time with the desire to take me Smiling for my family but dead inside, my Filipino partner doesn't know I'm like this, I just show a smile And I make her laugh trying to make her happy for me, Sunday February 25 7:45 PM 2024 I had to tell it, I couldn't hide it anymore. If you read this, keep fighting for your life. Life is going to hit you so hard that it will make you think about cutting everything and disappearing. But don't do it, keep fighting, at some point life will change I feel somehow better telling what I feel, If you want to chat with me, write to me, I'm left without friends I love them very much even though I don't know them I won't give up, I know my life will change at some point. I leave everything in the hands of God, If you want to meet my family, write to me, a giant hug to everyone.