I am a mother of two youngsters, I got divorced 3 years ago. I suffered from domestic violence for many years and, after a car accident, I developed a disease called Fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, multiple injuries in the spinal chord, besides already having essential tremors. It's extremely difficult for me to work because I'm in pain all the time. I barely get paid to pay for the living place and food. Actually, I can't pay all my debts and they are growing day to day. My ex-husband left me with various loans taken on my name and I can't pay them yet. I teach English online because I can't work in any other way. I know I am not the poorest person in the world or have the worst life story, therefore it's even more difficult for me to get any help. But the truth is life is getting really hard for me over the years, due to my health conditions. I work independently because nobody would hire an ill person, so I would never get a retirement pension. In my country, my diseases are not enough to get the sickness pension either. I am worried about myself. I'm not young. When I get sick, I can't work, and I can't pay for anything. My son and my daughter are lovely. They are students, but they also have some health conditions. My daughter had two column surgeries, the first by the time, I got divorced and since that moment she has migraine episodes. It was a really hard time for us. My son can't see very well. I could give more reasons why I need to breathe. I am scared. I am tired. I am sad. I just wish something good happened to us and stop feeling this grief inside for a moment. Two years ago, we adopted a cat, rescued from domestic violence too. I like to make people happy, I like to help them when I can. Currently, I'm helping an aunt who got a rare condition on her legs and take care of her. I do what I can.
Despite the situations, I smile frequently, but it is just to hide my true life. I haven't had a real moment of happiness for so long that I barely remember how it feels. Thank you for reading! That means a lot to me already.